My life a gift and a curse

 Lustfull. Intense desire or craving for gratification and excitement.Strictly sexual lust ,altthough i also commonly speak of  “lust for women” , “lust for power” and to “lust for love”. There is no negative connotation in this but it has developed to be my sexual sin.
 Gluttony could be my second quality.Over-indulgence and over-consumption of food,drinks or intoxicants to the point of waste. My way of taking pride in the security of having enough food,drink to consume to show it off, but it always results in a moral backlash when confronted with reality of those less fortunate then me.
  Greedy. My selfish desire for the prusuit of money,wealth,power,food or other possessions especially when this denies the same goods to others.Greed should not be considered a negative trait and should instead be embraced, I claim that greed is a profoundly benevolent force in human affairs, as well as a necessary foundation for the capitalist system. many have argued this definition confuses greed with self-interest, which can be benign.
  Sloth would be my common label from many. A spiritual apathy or laziness, putting off what “God” asks you to do, or not doing it or anything at all.An absence or insufficiency of love is the thing to get me there.laziness or indifference, of an unwillingness to act, an unwillingness to care. My failure to utilize one’s talents and gifts.
   Wrath. Inordinate and uncontrolled feelings of hatred and anger that i get. These feelings can manifest as vehement denial of the truth, both to others and in the form of self-denial,impatience and the desire to seek revenge and generally wishing to do evil or harm to others.Encompassed anger pointed internally rather than externally leads to suicide. So rather you than me.
  Envyous. I have envy everyone has it. This instabile desire that we all get. My unhappiness of anothers person fortune or love of one’s own good perverted to a desire to deprive other men of theirs? a reluctance to see our own well-being overshadowed by another’s because the standard we use to see how well off we are is not the intrinsic worth of our own well-being but how it compares with that of others.
  Pride/Vanity..Perhaps this is the reason why all of the above even define me. A desire to be more important or attractive than others, failing to give compliments to others though they may be deserving of them, and excessive love of self. If i only could take the pride as the crown of the virtues, distinguishing it from vanity it with be more simple, but selfishness overcomes it most cases.

Do not ask me of chastity,temperance,charity,diligence,patience,kindness,humilty. I will not know how or when to act them.
I am what i am!